First up, i would like to wish everyone a

HAPPY belated EASTER

I just realised that I never acknowledged this spectacular festive because without it, I wouldn't be having four awesome days off and instead I would be left of with two ordinary Saturdays and Sundays.  Now tell me how boring would that be. Well not exactly boring....

So yesterday, i spent my last day of the long weekend with the rents. Drove all the way up to the city to Woomoolooo ? Something like that and my rents and i split up. I went with my 30+ cousin with his girlfriend to Chatswood Westfield and there wasn't anything fabulous that caught my attention except for a glorious Tim Tams shake from GJ. Don't remember the full name. Anywho, Cousin+ GF dogged me and drove off while once again, i was left stranded with my rents and Aunty. So anyway we strolled around The Doman and Mrs Macquarie Chair. Saw a to be bride and groom taking photos by a photographer and i was glimpsing at  their poses and i was like...I don't want him to be my photographer.. Considering that he is an old Asian man. +.+" . The whole portrait looked so fake. Yuckkkk.

Anywho, really got to run now . I have three tasks to complete and they are all due tomorrow and i am feeling extremely sleepy. I can feel myself, falling asleep on the table.  So comfortable.,,

So fucking annoyed at the moment. My Stupid Brother tried to jump me because i wanted to use the computer. Stupid asshole. He's been on for the past 3 hours and woke me up with the sound of gunshots.  I didn't say anything even though he disturbed me. So when he was sitting there,  glaring at the monitor and when i "politely" asked him to get off. He freaking went insane and in the process he broke my beautiful bracelet.  I need to go back to the city to get it fix and i don't think i'll be doing that anytime soon.  :( . I don't care, I’m making him pay. It feels so weird without it.  I've grown to love my bracelet, it was my lucky charm, my weapon (seriously, the sharp edges from the stars do and will cut any predators who will try to attack me) and my accessory. I feel so empty without it. :(

Stop and Stare...
Do you see what i See?

How's the long holidays going for everyone? Splendid, i hope? Well mine is going alright and it seems that for once, this long weekend is actually going to be LONG, hence it's title. Let's hope so, because i don't want to be heading back to school just yet. I'm not quite rejuvenated from my break. {Well duh, it's only been the second day of the long long weekend}.

Anyway, yesterday was somewhat "new", despite the fact of spending 1/4 of the time, waiting at Steven's place, while the duo went to a RSL club. I was unfortunately underage and I possessing a fake ID? i think not. Just 5 more months to go Clara. Though at night Steven, Wei, Kevin ( which i accidentally smack him on the eye with a force that i unintentionally didn't mean to) + 8 other people went for a cruise to the City. There were about 5 other cars? So we drove all the way to the city and ironically, what were we there for? KFC... All the way to the city for KFC. , when we were coming back from the city, Me and Wei played  an hour of "Orange". Got home at one.
To JANNA AND ANNIE.  Yes girls, i know that i was meant to be having some nice catching up time with you but at the very last minute  ( no lies), wei convinced me to go. Promise we'll catch up very soon.

Anyway, had a 12 hr sleep, so i was up by 1pm. Went to Cab at 2 45 ish to meet up with Samina and Ana. Ana didn;t turn up until 3:15.  But it was okay. Headed for Rise Cafe then arrived at LIvo at 4:45? I wanted and needed a new wallet, and at the time i kinda figured that it would probably be the ONLY time where i can purchase a wallet because i don't plan to go out for a long time. So, i prayed that some shops were still open. But, until i got home, i figured that i will be going out next week because i need to buy some b`day presents. So back on track, purchased an urban orginial wallet. Very vintage and jade green . Though, i was very indecisive to whether the purchase the green or cream one. :S. Anywho, i really like it at the moment, though for some reason i have an unsteady feeling. I'm not sure if i made the right selection. Haha, well it's kinda too late because i lost my receipt. I plan to collect more UO bags and wallets soon. Yay.
(Should snap, upload and post pic... but i choose not too because i get too lazy).

Then bummed around at Myers.

Well , anyway, tomorrow i'm planning to stay at home and actually get some work done. Hopefully.

bye

If you can't read title, it is 18.5 hours and "i'm so not in the mood for your fucking asshole jokes" - Wei to Steven

&& next thing you know.. wei goes "play with me"

Its 2:31 am. I am stuck at Steven's house with Wei and Her bf. God knows what they're doing at the moment, and so it seems that the lightning has struck their head a few hours ago when we were in the middle of a heavy rain (So heavy, that  Amanda was unable to see through the windscreen) to make them behave so ridiculously.

I don't think I've seen the two couple become so stimulated simultaneously.  Wei just Flashed her boobs at me with her bra on out of no where and Steven…Wei pulled his pants down and literally, I was forced to turn around and stare at it- she was like " Clara look"  *turns head away from monitor"  and I get this gruesome scene of his BIG FAT ASS

Been a long day for me, I've been awake for the past 18.5 hours and I don't think I'll be getting sleep any time soon. I'm meant to be sleeping over Wei's house tonight and supposedly Steven is meant to be the means of our transport, so he could take us there... But the progress and productivity for that to happen? Not soon.

12 hours ago, I was at coming out of Westmead Hospital and would be heading to Maccas. 12 hours later. I am at Steven's place, listening to music, sub-consciously eavesdropping the faint conversation going between the pair which resulted me into having a scrunched up expression upon my face , eyebrows raised up and my mind raging at me, saying.. "WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK?!".

It's really be awhile since I've caught up with these people. So yeah, it was nice.  Oh and damn, i still haven't changed out of my school uniform yet.. that's because i haven't been home . What were you thinking? I am some unhygenic,dirty  person ?! get lost. I know you are though.

Anywho I'm off… Getting drowsy.

Let the Long Weekend start and may everyone have lots of fun. Mine has definitely started.

2:45 am end.

Nothing exciting has been happening over the past few days, despite the society and culture exam that i had on Tuesday (and i still don’t consider that intriguing). Miss marked the first part  already and at the moment, i am one mark of full marks for each question. E.g. 5/6, 4/5 and ½. Great. So let’s do some hectic calculation here. In order for me to reach my ideal mark of 80%. I can only lose two more marks... and they’re both extended responses and since i am a realistic person... i estimate that my society and culture assessment task two would be between 72%- 76%.  Why can’t i transform myself to Kha Gek, Virginia or Anh. It will be 90s all the way.. Or at least learn their study methods or be trained to be anti distracted.  *sigh*. The HSC is really hitting into me and Bel knows it :’(.

What else.. Oh yes, rents FINALLY purchased me a new table with extra extra space. Yay! No more sitting on the dinner table/bed to do my work or dream for a larger table. And also a brand new shelf.  Woot more room. I like i like. Will post photos once i manage to take some snap shots. Study area looks so awesome now.

Oh by the way, i like Cabra’s Gloria jeans. Clara been staring and peeking.

Anywho, the long weekend is coming up. Any plans? Me? I plan to bum and travel for two days and the other two days.. ATTEMPT TO STUDY. Key word: Attempt. Did i ever mention that i’m partially having a 4 and a half days holiday? I’m only going to school until 11/12 tomorrow because i have to go to my dentist + other appointments. Wei and Steven is coming tomorrow. So it’ll be good to have some nice catching up time  Omgs,  i actually chose to go to school because i’ve became a committed and studious student. LOL.  The only thing that i’ll be missing out is.. the first year book meeting and i plan to lead that committee.. Hopefully, i’ll be able ring someone in that committee, hopefully bel, so that it seems im actually at the meeting. My presence shall be around.  

Should really be doing Modern. But cbb

Clara is very disappointed at the moment.  I should be completing my Maths homework which is due in 3 hours (including, dinner and dishes time) but i really have to get this out of my system. Overall, I have been extremely content about my marks for each of my HSC courses and there have been only two assessment tasks that i am dissatisfied with.

English Advance in which i have scored 80% at. Yes, 80% band 5, looks good for an UAI mark. But for a single assessment task that i have so much faith in, in which i can do well in. It's kinda a let down. For the practice paper i scored 14/15 (that's 93%) Okay, at least there is a tiny optimism about having an 80. Firstly the assessment task weighting was 5%. So that's alright. But then again, every weighting counts and the next assessment is going to be difficult. L and now an 80%. WHAT THE HELL!? . Anywho, let's hope that for my Advance course.. The maximum percentage that i can fall to is... 80%. THE END FULL STOP.

Anywho. So i got assessment A out of the way and that wasn't the main motive that has impacted me to blog today. You see, Clara has done her Ext 2 English assessment task and she scored a most unfortunate mark... 68%. I was expecting at least a 70% and it gives me a 68%. Okay yeah, i must admit. I didn't pull all my weight into this assessment and i JUST realised that i missed out on one of the tasks that we have to contribute in order for me to attain more marks. So yes, i blame myself for that . Oh oh and my best friend: the procrastinator. But anyway, despite that i still don't understand why i got dragged down so low. Is it because i only had about 1100 words in my proposal? But the assessment sheet said. approx 1000. So i still don't understand. I know that my fellow peers wrote a 3000 word proposal. So maybe that had resulted with mine looking less and theirs hence making their proposal having the right amount of words? I dunno.. i'm not making sense. :S.  Well anyway. The weighting for it was 10%. But still.. That is it. Clara go aim for 80% and go talk to Miss tomorrow. Mk.

 OKAY. Now go back to your Maths. Oh and shit. SAC assessment. Give me an 80 if it loves me.

What happens if you feel like the biggest piece of shit at the moment? Like, when the world is ending and that you are going to be buried under a mound of solid cement? If you can't get your words together because your brain has suddenly blacked out. How about being blanked , dense and spaced out? Oh and let's not forget, the sudden discovery of something that will bring your whole mood down and when one of your best friends asks "How do you feel now?" You stumble and take a long pause and the only thing you manage to speak out is "Confused and disappointed". That's what I'm undergoing now.

I know that I should be helping Annie clean the pots and pans after cooking {sorry Annie}. But for some reason, I automatically took part into a trance and strolled my way into her room so I can just blog and let my pessimistic emotions out. I think it's probably one of the things that make me feel better after experiencing a hardship that every teenager would understand.

I don't like to be neglected and isolated. As inconsiderate this would sound – I like to be chased after, after we had a fight. I like to hear apologies and know that I am right. I like you to continue talking and not give up so easily. This is not happening at the moment.

At a more happier note.

You can repay me back by NOT baking the cookies for me to munch on. I don't want to be your hamster.  Hey, it's the least you can do after recieving the baking set for your present from me.

Though, there has been one thing that really disturbed and bothered me today whilst i was at Hype DC at Pitt St waiting for Janna. Whatever the reasons for this complete foreigner to undertake this decision. I will never know. As i said this person is a stranger.

Well anyway, this is where my observation began.  As typed out previously, i was waiting for Janna's ass to find me and as i was waiting i saw this old lady - about the age of 70. She was clearly a Vietnamese or Chinese descendent and most catastrophic; this lady was a woman (DUH) who was in search for what supposedly seem to be food, using her chopsticks to reach to the pit of the bin.

Obviously, a normal human being like me automatically felt compassionate for the poor lady. I really wanted to help her. Even go to Maccas to buy something for her and line up and god knows the line would be from Sydney to Cabra (okay maybe that was overly exaggerated) .

 But anyway, How often do you see an 80 year old, old Asian lady digging for food at the city's bin. Not often. Instead, I see "white" males sitting down with cardboard signs saying "Help me, need money to pay for legal fees" and so on. But i have never in my whole 17 years of life seen someone of my own race become so helpless. I think that's why i felt so sympathetic because of the race and gender connection (no offense).  Oh and let's not forget the age.

Okay so i'm bringing an atmosphere and mood of pity. But wait until i go on because i might mislead you if you don't read on.

Anyway, so the lady was desperate for food. However, as i observed... She was using her chopsticks so she can specifically clip onto cigarettes. USED CIGARETTES.  She went through multiple bins and successful puffed up some smoke.

I really didn't understand that old lady. Why did she have to go through all the embarrassment and effort just take a huff a ciggie. Maybe she wanted to have black lungs so she can die faster? But then again, why couldn't she just jump of the harbour bridge, if she was that in need to end her life faster. Maybe she wanted to people to pity her like i once did, so she can get free, new cigarettes? Maybe she was depressed and stressed out? But that's such an adolescent issue! or Maybe she was addicted... and didn't know how to stop.

Well whatever her values were. I didn't comprehend them. Maybe i should have just bought her a nicotine patch.