Just have to make a quick post before i go and get ready to head to English tutor and following that, my traditional sessions with Annie afterwards.

What the fuck really? I don't understand my dad and i don't think i will ever will nor will i want to understand him because it seems that he has this narrowed, self-conceived mind.

So i am up to my second box in selling 48 mixed Cadbury products that i have traded with my fellow peers. 3:15pm, i wait for my father to pick me up from school because i am a lazy bastard who does not choose to walk 2kms or so. I get in the car and He sees me holding my yellow box and chucks his crap at me " Omg, why are you selling this rubbish (the chocolates) for the school? You're wasting your time, your efforts"

"Dad it's freaking year 12. I am fundraising. Each box i sell i get $24"

Apparently, i don't think his mind immediately processed my words of gaining $24 each time i sell a box of chocky.

"it's always about the school. you're wasting your time."

"I don't see you paying approx $200 for me"

"$200. WHAT?! You're in year 12 and you need $200? Year 12 isn't the biggest thing in your life. The things you are going to buy are going to be useless after you get out of school. What are you going to do about them? Just leave it there, collect dust?  So what.. 100 people.. $20 000. Is everyone going to sell chocolates. The SCHOOL is going to get $20 000. They're ripping you off"

"OMG DAD. Why don't you believe me!? I get the profit not the freaking school. I am helping myself! Jesus, every other year 12 student in the freaking area is doing it. Aright then. Okay don't listen to me. Go ask your friends. Go ask your friends who has sons and daughters in my grade and ask them are THEY selling chocolates. Look, I'M doing all the work! NOT YOU DAD. I don't need your help"

"Oh okay, you said so, you said that you don't need my help, that's all i need to know"

Clara  becomes all frustrated and pissed off and no one speaks. Brian walks in the car.

Note: Everything was said in Cantonese.

Typical Asian dad, isn't it? I am trying to help myself and the family by paying an amount for my Year 12 necessities. So all the payment doesn't depend on the rents, and this is the shit i get?! They just don't understand the importance of having a recollections of year  12. Uh huh, my dad is from VN, he went to school there and didn't grow up with the luxuries, i have today, therefore it is ALMOST understandable that he doesn't understand the significance of year 12. But cmon, fit into the context of the time- the 21st century, Australia. He talks to his mates about me and likewise with his mates, they talk about their sons/daughters of the same age as i am. He understands the HSC, UAI, UNI system. So i don't see why he can't understand how imperative in remembering year 12 for me.

*Sigh*, at least mum is a wee more supportive

arrgs. Okay i'm off.
Good day.

Btws, i got my school photos back  (emoticon shall determine everything).

<update> Oh great... he just totally left without me by blaming that it is my fault that i am inpunctual. Firstly, we usually leave the house at 5 20. Today, he leaves at 5. I tell him that we usually leave at 5 20 and the ARJDFGKDFJGKDJ goes " I NEVER LEAVE AT 5 20" . BULL FUCKING SHIT. I GET TO ANNIE'S HOUSE AT 5 30 . IT DOES NOT TAKE 1/2 HR TO GET TO ANNIES HOUSE WHEN IT IS JUST AT CABRA RD.  FUCKING HELL, IT IS NOT MY FAULT THAT HE HAD A HANG OVER THIS MORNING WHICH MADE HIS DAY WORST. IF HE WANTS 5. I MAKE 5 NEXT NEXT WEEK AND IF I DON'T GET 5 THEN I AM GOING TO SKIZ REGARDLESS IF I GET IN TROUBLE OR NOT! Call me disrespectful or whatever, but seriously i need to smack some sense of reality at him.

Clara hates Durian and especially heavy metal music.
Jack hates Durian and anything associated to durians.

Wanna see one of them suffer? Wait untill the 28/5/08.

12th of May ,Clara and Jack has agreed to the terms of starting a new revoultional bet that will change history. For two and a half weeks Jack must not crack a black joke at any time regardless of the situation. If this so happens, Jack must consume two durian seeds and one durian ice cream. However, if Jack has successfully acomplised his mission on not perfoming any black jokes at any time, Clara must listen to two hours of heavy metal music and consume one durian seed. Jack must be most utterly and truthfully honest if he failes his mission, and if this commences, automatically Jack will fail the bet. Let the two weeks begin until 11:18 28/5/08. Please sign :)

JT 12/5/08 11:25pm

Clara C 12/5/08 11:30 pm

Almost abandoned my blog, did I ? Well guess what, I think not.

It’s only been a several days and I am not going to bother counting how many days I went blog-less even if it is less than 10. And no, I can count to 10. 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10. Voila. Shit I forgot the 0 .

I’m not sure what to update about, because really there isn’t much to update on. Besides the fact that on Friday (9/5/08), I found out that face masks crack me up until to the point where I start cry and would almost piss myself. Sorry Annie’s bed LOL. Jokes. Did you realised how ugly and weird they look like. They remind me of a massacre murder’s weapon that can suffocate you then turn you into one of them. Saturday.  Just spent some time with Wei and Ana but mostly with Samina. Then when the sun went down spent the night with Jessica. Took heaps of luvos. Haha , it’s luvo season and today  Sunday, I went to Tayla’s to get my dead ends snipped.

Crap, no school work has been done this weekend. Better start doing something.  

So mother freaking piss off at the moment.
In two weeks I lose both my favourite jewelleries.
My pearl earings and my starry bracelet.
Yeah, my first time losing one piece of jewellery is okay.
But the second time just makes me rage.
Two Sundays ago, I lost my favourite pearls.
I am unable to identify what exactly happened to it.
Though I know that something happened to it while I was sleeping

Maybe so gay ass cheap burglar shoved clorophene on me and that explains why I didn’t feel a thing when they robbed me, even though I am an extremely light sleeper. But if it is clorophene, then clorophene works.

Or with a more logical conclusion, somehow the stud piece that holds the earring in place, fell apart because I am a very violent sleeper.

Then today, when I got out of the shower.
I commence my daily routine with checking that my bracelet is in placed because I always have this feeling that when I get out of the shower I will lose it…
AND STUPID IRONY TAKES CHARGE AND I ACTUALLY FUCKING LOSE IT. ARRGS.
After fixing it twice, travelling to and fro to the city, IT IS NOW GONE FOREVER. MOTHERFUCKER. ARRGS. YOUR DAD.  :’(. SO PISSED OFF.

In addition, even so this is a minor issue. But because I am imploding at the moment, the tiniest shit that is bottling up within the deepest part of my soul will burst out. Today,  I had paint on one of my favourite jeans. Okay, not so favourite, but if I had to choose between an ugly pair and the one that I had paint on it. I would choose the one which now have paint on it. But because of Green Day, it look’s like a piece of shit.

Oh yeah, I kinda blame myself since I thought. Hmm, Paint.. it should only go on my top half of my body hence the top I was wearing. Therefore, my bottom half hence pants shouldn’t get painted on no matter what. And FFS next thing you know I get more paint on my jeans compared to my top…. OMG, I SHOULD OF WORE MY MOST ULTIMATE UGLIEST PAIR OF JEANS THAT I POSSESS... FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK

Okay, need to sleep it off, then continue to brag about this to my fellow peers tomorrow. Haha, feel sorry for them.  But since I listen to them all the time, it’s  there go to repay the favour and listen to me. Bwhawhahwa. FUCK IM ANNOYED. YAYAYAYA.

<edit> : I found my bracelet lying on the corner of the bathroom floor this morning (60508). Yay me :L. and it's not broken.Double Yay.

It's been 7 months since I have neglected bebo and next thing you know I'm back on the social networking site during the most crucial time of my life … the freaking HSC and I created Bebo just to waste valuable time. Irony isn't it?

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Well at least I'm not going to be the only person apart of this. Wei the douche bag decided to join me therefore we combined a damn bebo together in the name of "Clara beara Ruby duby". Don't ask me why I decided to accompany her and Bebo. Just got bored I think. But I promise myself not to be too absorbed into it like last year. Promise. Figured that YOUTUBE is more exciting :L.

Speaking of Youtube. What are your favourite film makers? I have some particular ones that I like to watch, mostly to do with comedy because I am a happy person.

Here are a few

-         Jawkneeyeah  

-         NigaHiga

-         HappySlip

-         KevJumba

Yeesum. So last night I went on a cruise with Steven, Wei + friends. Went to the OP {Ocean Pacific) and we were going fast. Felt like a rollercoaster. Haha. Up the mountains. By the way `scuse the double enterer, when I said "cruise", I mean car cruising, not ship cruising and yes we were on Ocean Pacific HWY ( I think) not a real Ocean Pacific water, boat, fish, lobster thingy. Just in a Nissan Pulsar. Along with Integras

What else.. oh yes, managed to get my fat arse to Big W to get my materials for multi and after a zillion years or so, Wei and I took some luvos. Here are some:

Is it you
Is it you
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting

All refreshed up, just a little sleep deprived. But its ay-okay. Weekends are once again here and looking back at the first week of school, I managed to survive two consecutives English assessment and for those who knows me, I take English extremely seriously, hence meaning Clara has been studying for quite awhile, preparing and has taken on any rituals available for her to stay awake. Apparently, splashing cold water on me works better than caffeine. Though, it's just so hard to wake up and concentrate because the holidays were just over and you're meant to integrate into the "better" sleeping habit thus meaning you should be in bed by 11 30  so you be wide awake for the next day, but because of those damn assessments, I think not! >_>. I'm not sure if I'm going to be anticipated to see the results because I  don't think i did as well as I could of. *sigh*

Apart from my assessments, I also had been procrastinating.

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Last Sunday Banu and I had some catching up time. Haven't caught up with that girl properly for over a  year or so even though we share multimedia class together. Had awesome fun. It was really a last minute thing. We were on the phone at 12:30 am watching Little Nicky and I was like "Let's catch up tomorrow. Go to Parra" and she was like "yeah okay". Mhm, and that's how it all started. Tops, Max Benners, scarfs from Banu [thanks], scratches, bandaids were our day.

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And then before last Sunday, on Thursday, i caught up with my cousins. Jenny, Winny and Yinny. Usually there are the five of us but because one of them, Joanna went to Japan for student exchange, it's just us four this time.  Met up with my cousins at 5 pm ish at the city then headed for the monorail to have Pancakes on the Rocks at Darling Harbour. Went to that bowling place where they also have laser squirms?  That place that is always advertised on tv. I am the worst bowler on earth, don't gutter balls love me. Walked on that darling harbour bridge like 4 times to and fro because I wanted ice cream and on the spot decided to go to the aquarium at 9 at night and omg, you guys HAVE to go to the aquarium at night because it is super awesome. Everything is more enchanted, mystical and "freaky". Even though half the sea creatures were sleeping but the mood in the aquarium is GG. LOL.  Nevertheless it was also more fascinating. Oh by the way, I am NEVER going to run up and down the ramps to see the sharks anymore. Way too exhausting, especially if you have a country road bag on you fill with sleep over clothes, bottle of water and everything else.  Went back to Jenny and Winny's place to sleep over and on the train they made a nonsense but hilarious video because we were oh so bored. Got stranded at Lidcombe for about 40 minutes because the timetables there are stuffed up. But managed to get to her place safely

Oh yes and in regards with that rape and journal topic that I have been meaning to tell you.  I was reading and had finish reading "The Surgeon" by Tess Gerristen (finally know how to spell her surname) and there was this topic that will fascinated all journal, blog, diary writers. Okay maybe not ALL , but it will definitely apply to me. Just say, you were rape and previous you were a daily blog/journal/diary writer. Would you guys stop producing frequent entries because you do not want to reflect back on your life anymore after the unspeakable incident has happened? Like I mean Rape is such a predicament in one's life. It just shuts you up, triggers personality changes- optimistic to pessistmist, shoots through dreams…. Oh when I say, do not want to reflect back ony our life anymore, it means like NO more ENTRIES. Because, you have nothing more to look forward in life anymore.  I'm curious… but I think I'll agree, don't think that I would want to continue blogging because your life is just so tarnished. Unless, I have some extremely good sense of self worth. Haha.

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Maccas and KK with Annie at 10pm is yum. Not because i was with her, but because i was accompanying the food instead :) . It needs me

Anywho, need to get ready. I'm out today.

19 minutes till 11, hence 19 more minutes till bed. It's an early rise and shine tomorrow – well for the past two weeks it will be because as shit as this sounds, it's back to school time.  Can you believe it year 12`ers we completed half of our HSC already and now we have half more to accomplish. I dunno for you guys, but so far it's been an extremely quick journey.

I've been on a short hiatus lately and that's because i was trying to complete the rest of my "holiday" homework, and in the end,  I managed to complete half of the pack load. I looked back to the entry which outlines what was needed to be due:

From April 15^th.

Clara's Holiday Homework/Assignment

• 2u ENG  "In the Wild" Essay
• 2u ENG Speech
• SAC 1/3 of the Pip
• MH Booklet
• 2U MATH 7 exercise
• 4u 1/3 of Major
• ITM Major 

Then there are the weekly  tasks

• Tutor Maths Homework
•  Tutor English Homework

And so far on the last day or night of my two week break – 28^th April

This is what I managed to complete ( anything that is stroked out):

Clara's Holiday Homework/Assignment

• 2u ENG  "In the Wild" Essay
• 2u ENG Speech - STARTED
• SAC 1/3 of the Pip  - STARTED
• MH Booklet -   STARTED
• 2U MATH 7 exercise
• 4u 1/3 of Major - STARTED
• ITM Major 

Then there are the weekly  tasks

• Tutor Maths Homework
•  Tutor English Homework

Haha, I didn't do much, yes maybe because  I decided to go out on Thursday with my cousins and Sunday with Banu – will comment about these two days very soon. {my original plan was to not go out at all during the second week of the holidays and focus on school work, but I don't think that really happened. Wait no, it shouldn't be those two day's fault that has caused me to complete such minimum amount of  schoolwork. Let's say, It's so hard for me to get motivated and get started } But there is one thing that  I did instead of usually not doing : Read a 3u crime novel and yes yes. I still haven't rant on that little topic which I was meaning to rant about a few days ago. Promise I'll get back to you on that. I seriously gotta stop making promises with what my upcoming blog entries will be because I seem to keep breaking them. Not great

Anywho, I think I'm going to hit my little shack. Let's call it a very early night shall we? Oh and before I forget, don't think I'll be updating much until the end of the week because I'll be studying for my two assessment tasks on English. Damn.

I'm not asking much ...
I'm not asking for your life ...
I'm not asking you to rob the bank for me ...
I'm not asking you to slurp on 94583945839 worms at once for me...
I'm not asking you to get me a 100%UAI
nor am i asking you to become a necrophiliac for me

Though i am asking you to do my survey for Society and Culture! PLEASE .
@ BORED OF STUDIES

Click here to do my survey PLEASEEE.

'Scuse me for that. I'll post a proper entry some time soon. But i just had to advertise. LOL