I just got home from fishing from St George's River, Picnic Point Fitzpatrick section (well theoretically, I wasn't the one who fished, neither was Wei) with Steven, Phey, and Thomas. It's 12 58 am and I have to be ready by 11 am tomorrow, because I'm hanging with Bel and Annie. I'm not really tired and because I haven't blogged in awhile. I'm not even going to mention any excuse for not doing so besides my dog ate my laptop, hence I can't blog. (you don't even have a dog, Clara). So to compensate, I'm going to post some images up quickly. Something that I was meant to show a few weeks ago.

Enjoy.

So after analysing these three images. A pattern has been created. As you can see, which ever person said something last , another word automatically appears, and that unfortunate term would be 'dead'. Hence, sadly, i was the only person in the convo to actually see this upsetting term.

Fortunately, i am not dead yet. Sorry Clara haters.

I've been told that I talk waayyy too much, but I guess this fact doesn't reflect with the amount of times I actually blog. Excuse me for this miss, as I had been most upfront slothful.

Well guess what? My HSC is finally over! Yes man, I finally reached and pushed the brakes. Been through 4 different stages of schooling, to get to this stage and it have screeched to a stop down the road. How exciting is that?  I now have about three months break, until I hit UNI (hopefully), hence have all the time in the world, not needing to worry about anything and everything. It seems like a student's dream doesn't it? – sleeping late, waking up late. No assignments, homework, exams preparation... And this was my dream two weeks ago.

But because I just anticipated to today's day so many times, it's just not as special anymore. I now feel guilty and restless because I am not working towards something. Sadly enough, I reconsidered doing my HSC because I really believe that I didn't give it my best shot, hence  when I was talking to the newly enrolled 12'ers they are completely devoted to the HSC. I don't remember being so captured by the HSC this time last year, like how they are currently doing now. But then on second thoughts… I think I'd rather go to tafe or just make it into a shit uni and transfer course. I don't think I really want to go through all the pressure, suffering and anguish that I had suffered this year. Perhaps, I feel that I just don't deserve this break. Therefore, I've been applying for jobs. A constellation stars of them. Hoping to try my luck and see would I make it to a casual position and earn some dough this summer. OooO yeah.

As most of you have already heard from my delightful bragging. My Formal night (13/11/08) was on the last day of the HSC and the last of my exams. Overall… it didn't feel right. Maybe the formal was too soon or that there weren't many teachers there to celebrate and congratulate us on our achievement. Everyone felt so distant amongst each other... so I guess that's another reason that contributed to my 'once-in-a-lifetime-clara's-best-fairy-tale-dreamt-princesses-green-or-purple-dress-take-2GB-worth-of-photos-which-never-happened' formal. I would comment on this topic more, once I get a hold of photos. Yeah, usually I am the photographer for events, but because the formal was a bedlam… I just couldn't be bothered to give a rat ass to take many photos.

On another note, yesterday was a clear example on how things just led to one thing to another (no sexual innuendos intended). Initially, I was meant to be picked up by Bel  (just me and her) and head to office works and Maccas to chat. But then , next thing you know… 2 added to 3 which made 5 – Annie, I, Evan, David and Shane drove to livo to pick up Evan's monitor. Then headed to westies, I met up with my cousins – Jenny and Winny. Left them, went back to the crew and bought a top and found Banu and Darwin and Sibel to be sitting on the table. They left us and the rest of us went to officeworks then drove to Annie's house, the extra one… where they chucked me into the boot.. so Bel, Annie, Shane, David and Evan had luxury in the car , as we drove to bowling.

I can pronounce that I am the world's crappest bowling player but the master at gutter balls. However, with miracle. I still managed to beat Bel, in the second round and Evan and I ended tie with Shane and Bel (don't giggle at the number =.=') with 69 and one point below the winner score of 70. Something happened to the last game and we had to split into groups of two.

Asian man.
She wishes that they're hers.
So like, i'm happy that i pissed her off.

Luvoos
Sabotage, love love. Check out how scared Annie is.

(I got sewed for putting the photo of Annie and David up)

Biggest Loserrrss - Annie and David.

LOSERRRSSSS - Shane and Bel

The best team alive - Evan and I.

The final score sheet... and i still managed to kick arse... well Bel's arse.

As promised in the last entry which seems like a dino years ago, I’m back with an entry. Yes, whether or not you like my presence… deal with it. (I’ve became so agro, these days. One being, post-HSC syndrome and two Prehistoric Monster Syndrome). 

These three weeks had been hell, especially the first English exam. I just exploded, mainly because I realised that I am doing the real thing, and that there isn’t any more excuses anymore in screwing up your exams.

After sooking, over my “failure” attempt in getting a heaps high mark in that paper, since nerves ate my skin away and that I ran out of time.

I’ve made an “inspiration list”. Well, I had two, but one fell off…

1. I will kick arse

2. I will not sook but keep on persevering

3. I will walk into the exams feeling confident

4. You got to be trying hard if you want something. If you don’t get it, then you are not trying hard enough.

5. Good girls get good karma ( LOL)

And a sign that said 80+ UAI .. which fell off.

But after writing that list, I realised that I missed out the most significant stimulation.

As cliché this would sound– if you just gave it your best shot. Work from there and succeed - that would be enough, because you know your own standards and if you gave it 101% with the circumstances that you were undergoing, i.e. me – procrastinating right at the last minute , hence contributing to me not completing all of the questions in the exams (time-wise… not because I didn’t know how to answer the questions),  then be happy with what you got.

I’ve immigrated myself to Annie’s place throughout my preparation periods for the HSC. I can’t study at home because of my younger siblings and you should know how younger siblings are… “annoying, loud and inconsiderate”. Besides, my table is so clustered with notes and stuff..  I don’t want to touch the mess. HAHA. Here is one of the 'clean' days.

Brian had a "STFU, stop talking to yourself", message after i stuck my motivational message onto the wall.

But knowing me, some days weren’t as productive as they should be at Annie's house. Which lead to this:

Well enough, about the HSC. It was a tormenting journey, and isn’t over yet for me yet. I still have my Society and Culture exam and Industrial Technology- Multimedia in and I’ll do my best.

So it’s been luxury, after my last exam. I got to sleep in and sleep early ( I realised the importance of sleeping early. It is not until you have to study until late and having only three hours of sleep before an exam that you appreciate the treat that sleeping can offer. Oh I missed it and I’m sorry for taking ‘sleeping’ for granted). LOL.

The formal details? Well, I got my dress and heels and also my accessories. Well one of them. I  am still on a look out for an extremely large clutch. Most likely black. My colours would be turquoise and black. Unfortunately it was a combination of green or purple. But oh well. Tomorrow, I hope to go to Penrith to find the items, so it won’t be a definite clash with anyone and perhaps I’ll stop by Livo, sometime soon. I missed that place. Haha.

Anywho, going to study. I don’t want to slack off. Give it your best shot, but give it your best shot in the preparation too, oh and will find a job during these two-week ‘break’.

Will drop by soon, preferably before my last two exams begin and from there.  I’ll be partying hard (invites are already sent out).

cyu soon.

I’ve been a horrible person lately.

I have not been studying as much as I should for the HSC. And crap, I am partially screwed.

Being Lazy is one reason, but it isn’t the core (how unusual).

In-fact, it is something so abrupt that is distracting me from my studies.  For those who have been talking to me recently, my sister has been rushed to hospital… again.

To be exact, it started last, last Wednesday, as she had a head injury at Community Day but was discharged the following day. At home, she was ‘odd’ - the constant headaches, vomiting, drowsiness, being awfully pale and so on after in-taking a hell lot of Panadol /Panamax. ( no, she did not overdose) Therefore, she was sent to Emergency at Westmead, hence being stuck at Westmead for eight hours, Friday for 6, Saturday 12 hours and overnight - she was finally discharged on Sunday and thank god for that!

Basically, there was some dried up blood left, pressuring on her vein which was causing her to become nauseous. The doctors said it was an uncommon case, and there was a need for an operation that requires drilling a 5 cent hole at the dried blood area, so the fluids would run back to her brain normally. Luckily, there wasn’t a need for that as the following day; she looked perfectly fine but the doctor recommended for her to stay in hospital for the weekends.

Thank you to Jessica, Annie and Tin who came to visit and kept me company.

To the many significant others who asked how she was.

Here are some photos from the hospital

Where i have camped, when staying overnight

My Sister the luvo.

Getting ready to come home

Moving on,  I thought it wouldn’t be fair, if I just leave my reader a cliff hanger on where I will be for the next upcoming weeks. So, I just caught up with my YouTube updates and the next thing on my schedule would be to study, but because I had surfed on several other blogs such as Virginia’s and Bel’s, they all left prior notices that they would be on hiatus until the HSC over is over- or just in cases, they just 'dissapeared'.

Therefore, if i seem dead for the next following month. I'm just studying.

I finally completed 13 years of education. Even though, it hasn¡¦t hit me quite yet since there were no waterfalls streaming out of my eyes ¡V it is official.

This week was my last Week B, let alone my last week of high school education in CHS. Nonetheless, it is the last time where I will be easily guided in whatever circumstances. I can¡¦t distinguish whether this event is an unfortunate or fortunate outcome, but there will be no more periods, classrooms, set recess and lunch, gossip about our peers and seeing our classmates five times a week. There will be no more working together with people who are almost the same age and being in a secured environment.

You¡¦re on your own now Clara. It¡¦s time to put your 13 years education to test. Examine your independency.

It¡¦s quite gloom if I think about it. But grateful at the same time. Can you believe how many umpteenth times that we all complained that School is a drag and how we would like the bell to hit 3:15 asap, or how we would anticipate weekends or count down how many weeks there are left until the holidays will arrive? Well guess what? All of these hopes and wishes finally came true.

It¡¦s scary on how we are actually challenging against time and how we are meant to make the most and best out of everything. Have I done this during my high school years? I¡¦ll say yes, but there are some minor regrets. One of them might be choosing the wrong subjects for yrs 11&12. But who knows, if I give it full throttle in the upcoming three weeks, maybe it won¡¦t be much of regret anymore. What I¡¦m trying to say here is that we can control out regrets, because all regrets can be made into a positive connotation by learning from regrets.

I remember the first day of high school. Everything was a blur and I thought that the school bell sounded like a fire-bell. I could not differentiate between C,B or A block, WTF were rollcalls and the school-hall just looked so large. Over the years, the canteen¡¦s cans had increased to $1 from the day, I was a petite junior 7¡¦er to one of the oldest student (excluding international students), year 12¡¦er. The school cans were $1.20 to what I know of now $2.20.

From the transition from a jnr student to a snr student, I believe that our grade made the most notorious but most memorable mark. During the last day of our SC exam- Geo and Hist. , we made one of the BOS become extremely upset, resulting to 20 students or so to be picked out that were ¡¥responsible¡¦ and had their SC certificate cancelled . The Irony? Our grade made history, as we had 20 band 6s in History and 10 band 5s in Geography. Hopefully, we will make the same effect for our modern history students! Be the first to get some band 5s and band 6s in the school for that course, because apparently, in history the highest mark was 78% (band 4). Hence speaking of the HSC, since I¡¦ve graduated that means there are 3 weeks left until the HSC begins. GOOD LUCK ALL.  

To finish the year, once again our grade did something so outstanding yet almost infamous. Our Graduation ceremony was very unique compared to the past years, as we relied most of our program on technology (which I admit, was impressive), cutting out live teacher¡¦s speeches and the student¡¦s performances? WOW. Nonethless, the picnic from yesterday had the public complaining¡K because he was an arsehole that punched one of our students even after this student apologised. Someone tell me, where is the Justice?

If I had to describe our grade in one word?

COLOURFUL.

Well besides that I am seriously sunburnt from yesterday¡¦s school picnic. Here are some photos in the past week. I brought my camera for the whole week this week, so that I can capture the last moments in high school.

Enjoy

All very tired - Tanja, Mili, Bojana and I


Drench nay? - Bel, Erskine, I and Kha Gek



 she watched us grow :) - Ms Nguyen our year advisor and I


What? - Tommy, Makara and Helal


He also had a target on the back of his shirt - Barnes and I


She started me - Gera and I


Things got a little bit vile cos of the heat - Annie and Bel


Yep, a little bit too vile - Evan attacking Bel

Graduation



Society and Culture Class `08. Yep that's all of us


 Modern Class of `08. Ali was missing


Maths Advance `08 - Dennis and Duong dissapeared. Don't ask me what happened to my hair


I love Bel.


Modern and Ext buddies. Haha, yeah i love you Hyrocliffics and Sprouts


Freaking Primary and now H/S - Banu and I



You've made my life in H/S hell... but thanks - Ben and I


Tanlapthanh and I fianlly have a proper photo for once


Will miss seeing you all 5 times a week!


Disclaimer: The following photos are from Bel


ROFL? Tung wrapping Jorgo and Socheath


School's OUT

CHS`08 GRADUATE

ofcourse there are heaps more photos from the past two days. Several Hundereds infact! So if there are particular ones, that people would want. Email/tag/Msn/FB me. But you might get them after the HSC.

Happy 20th Birthday Phey

12/09/08

(my apologies for the delay)

& while i'm at it

Happy Birthday PM Kevin Rudd

I am going to punch my internet connection one day (No offense Jessica) and also msn. Offline messages do not work, and I have no freaking idea why. So, I ain't going to trust that shit anymore. Is it me or is technology getting shitter? How ironic aye? Like I mean, computer technology is meant to get BETTER not worse. Or perhaps, technology finally hates me because I have reached old age. That explains why older people have difficulties with using computer… and I am soon becoming one of them, even though I must admit, I am one of the most computer literate female in my grade.

Basically, I was at Wei's house, half crapping myself because I didn't go home last night or rung home and NO I did not run-away from home like most teens would do when they had a dispute with their rents. But apparently, I have grown out of that stage. Remember Clara, you're 18 now. So instead of "running-away" from home… why don't you just "move-out". Alright, that has nothing to do with anything. Great, now I have lost track. Oh yes, that's right, as I was saying,  I didn't escape the madhouse but was granted permission to go clubbing at St James with Phey, Thomas, Wei, Steven, Savy, Lisa, Amanda, Vernon, Sam and Amanda's friend for Phey's 20^th birthday. Got back to my area around 4 am ish, so instead of waking my parents home so they can unlock the front-door (not because I didn't have the keys. But there is this lock where it doesn't require keys to unlock the door though, instead there is a need to use manual hand-skills to unbolt it). So being, a considerate person that I am (which my parents do not seem to value this significant characteristic), I decided to stay at Wei's place for the night.

I promise to post the photos up once I get ahold of them. Yup, I didn't bring my camera.

Oh and don't worry, I will discipline myself because the HSC is nearing so quickly … almost like the speed of light (what a cliché simile) by not clubbing anymore.

Speaking of the HSC being just around the corner (another cliché), that means H/S is coming to an end… 4 days to be exact, and yup I am graduating! HOLY SHIT right? 6 years of exams, assignments and guidance will be just another fragment of remembrance. How terrifying :S. I'll comment more on my high-school life when I make an entry when I graduate as I am positive that a barrel of memories will come rushing back. Until then, I will bring my camera every day for the rest of this week to capture the last moments I have in CHS.

Congrats to me!
I've finally finished reading Twilight and ZOMG... I can see what the fuss is all about. It's great! Though, there are some parts where I'd rather snooze, but when the climax came about, it made me squeal!

Meyer did an awesome job with the plot and it's a really easy read. Thankfully, i understood some "difficult' words and being the English nerd that i am :L. I kind of recognised some of the terms from Tishler's Vocab. Quite a few, in-fact. I now question whether he read the book first and somehow develop the vocab list.  Haha, or maybe it's just pure coin-incidence.

Okay, that really isn't any relevance. So moving on...

I can't wait for the release for this film. I can imagine the line being comparable to The Great Wall of China. Haha.

I've kind of 'cheated' and took a sneak peek on the trailers, which really doesn't do any harm right? Even though, i initially wanted to have no clues on how the film look like. It was too un-irresistible, after reading 423 pages or so.

I really don't like Robert Pattinson who plays Edward Cullen. He looks too sly and sinister in my opinion and not hot enough :( .  I dunno, but after watching him act from the trailers, I didn't feel the love or passion for Bella. In contrast with the book, he is absolutely and completely devoted to her. Maybe Pattinson should stick with his Harry Potter role in Cedric Diggory where he was the antagonist. Perhaps, this could be the Make up's department fault. Eventhough he is described as "chalky pale" in the book. In the film, it looks like he was plastered with a bucket of white mould – it was way too much. I imagined, Edward, having more natural pale skin rather than molding clay cremated on his face. In addition, Pattingson 's face structure did not meet my expectations. His face's structure was just too stern and rigid. It's too sharp. Hence contributing, to my impression of him being too diabolical. Nonetheless, his eyes... they were too 'mean'.  Edward Cullen's physical appearance was not how i dreamt of (take it literally, because i actually did dream of Edward Cullen. LOL). He's far cuter 'normally'.

On the other hand, Kristen Stewart was absolutely perfect for the role of Bella . She was what i imagined when i was reading. I could feel that she was totally in love with Edward and that she was kind, soft, and prepared to be totally in love. Her appearance fitted perfectly. I guess, her supple face structure really did the job. The only criticism i could say about Bella is that her hair is too bushy and her voice. I thought, that her voice would of been more warm and cheery rather than (will get back to you with that word, once Virginia will help me figure it out. It's driving me nuts! LOL)

I might be somewhat bias as i only seen 3 trailers. So, don't take what i say in these actors/actress. Perhaps, when i finally view this film at the cinemas on 11/12. Then I can  confirm and see if i  still adhere to these opinions.

I am definetly looking forward to the film. But so far, what i seen from the trailers, the antangonists - James, Victoria and Laurent are more focused in the film compared to the book and apparently, the  conflict scene between James and Edward would be visualised. The book did little to describe this scene, so i guess that's the magic of films aye?

I might read Midnight Sun, Edward's prespective. But after that, I must stop reading the series. I can feel HSC's arms dragging my collar as I slide across the room, screaming in anger and kicking my legs to break free from it's grip. Apparently, I cannot break free.  But after that. I'll kick it's ass and go back to happy reading.

 
By the way Thank you to